Err.. darling, this post is just for you. there's no anyone know about it. ok, firstly, soalan yang akan keluar drpd fikiran you is, why here? kenape mesti kat sini i luahkan? because, the thing that we tell using a words from a mouth is totally different daripada apa yang hati kite katekan. mungkin kalau i ckp secare lisan lain daripada ape yang sebenarnye i rase. so, maybe this is the best way to describe bende tu. i x nak ckp yg i berharap you x frust sbb i tahu yg you memang akan frust bile bace post ni. err.. shall we start? ok. the first thing that i'm gonna say is, you say that my love "da berkurangan dalam hidupmu" do you know why? the truth is, i x pernah bagi pown kasih sayang tu dekat you selame ni. only you, just you, yang rase i bagi terlalu banyak kasih sayang dekat you. baru sekarang i faham ape yang orang tu ckp, kadang-2 kebaikkan boleh mendatangkan salah faham. and the things is finally happens. the second thing is, you said that you missed me very, very, very much. but!! pernah x you message i bile you terase rindu?! pernah x?! memang pernah, tapi berape kali?! yeah!! sbb tu i kate yg i x pernah bagi kasih sayang pown kat you. because you never show me the truth that you always said at your status in Facebook. you know that the things you do is to show that you lies to everyone?! they don't know the truth. so maybe they thought that i was the one yang patut dipersalahkan. you kate fikiran you lebih matang daripade umur you yang sebenar. maksud i, umur you 19 tapi u matang just like 20 or 22. but, tapi sebenarnye bagi i perangai you buat situation tu jadi mcm i ni yang 20 or 22 dan you 17 atau lebih mude dari tu, mcm budak-2. it's hurt me. don't you know yang kwn-2 i selalu kate yang you mcm budak-2, x matang. for the first time, i x rase ape-2 lagi. mungkin dyeorg rase pelik kenape i pilih you tapi bukan lain-2 yg lagi baik drpd you. tapi ape yang dyeorg katekan tu betul. i know that you was stalked. tapi i biar kan je sbb maybe you saje-2 nak tahu perkembangan i. tapi x perlu sampai semue kwn i you nak tgur. chat, kate mcm-2. yang you syg i, takut kehilangan i. You pernah x muhasabah diri you? pernah x you fikkirkan balik ape yang you pernah buat in our relationship?! terlalu senang utk i faham diri you yang sebenar. bukan sbb i memahami, tapi sbb terlalu banyak kelemahan diri you yang senang utk buat you tertipu. it's just a mess. perlakuan you tu semue buat i rase rimas sngt-2. x perlu utk you "SHOW OFF" your love to the world sedangkan you x menghayati maksud sayang yang sebenar. i'm so, so, so sorry for being rude to you. but this is the real things i've be faced with. i'm so so sorry. you have to remember that 'll never give a second chance to every man. this is was the first and last. if you still x berubah, honestlly that i'll leave you, and never ask why. i da luahkan segale-2 nyer dekat sini. kalau you still x bole nak fhm lagi bertambah beban i!!
